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CyberBusted 12/21/2010 Posted on Firetown.com

FIRETOWN-- THIS IS YOU! I HOPE YOU ALL APPRECIATE THAT I WENT OUT ON A FUCKING LIMB TO PROTECT THE INTEGRITY OF THIS FORUM, BUT I WOULD LIKE AN APOLOGY FROM THE ADMINISTRATOR(S) OF THIS "CLOSED GROUP" AS TO WHY NOBODY RESPONDED [EXCEPT FROMMES- AND HE CAUSED EVEN MORE OF A MESS BY SUPPORTING YOU!]

MIKE-- I'M CALLING IT AS I SEE IT. IF YOU RUN THIS FORUM THAN YOU HAVE AN OBLIGATION TO PROTECT IT AND EACH OF US FOR SUPPORTING YOU BY GIVING US A SAFE PLACE TO SHARE IDEAS.

NOTICE THIS IS YOUR ACCOUNT THAT WAS HACKED ALONG WITH MINE.

ARE YOU A BLACK SHEEP OR A ASLEEP AT THE WHEEL? YOU HAD THE ABILITY TO CLEAR MY NAME AND PUT AN END TO THIS SITUATION BEFORE IT ESCALATED TO THIS POINT.SO, WHEN I AM BEING ACCUSED OF SOMETHING UNETHICAL AND ILLEGAL AND YOU HAVE THE ABILITY NOT ONLY CLEAR MY NAME BUT TO CONFIRM THAT YOU ALSO HAVE EVIDENCE TO PUT AN END TO DISINFO AGENTS AND PROVOCATEURS THEN YOU OWE IT TO EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US TO COME FORWARD.

I EXPECT YOU TO DO SOMETHING AND DO IT QUICKLY. REMOVE ANYONE WHO THREATENS THE SAFETY AND INTEGRITY OF THIS FORUM.

WHO IS GUARDING YOUR HOUSE TONIGHT? I HAVE BEEN ON WATCH NOW FOR WAY TOO FUCKING LONG WITH NO END IN SIGHT.

"FIRST THEY CAME FOR THE JEWS?"

WRONG!

FIRST THEY CAME FOR THE COMMUNISTS! [REF: NIEMOLLER]

WAKE THE FUCK UP.

HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOU WERE ACCUSED OF NOT ONLY A CRIME, BUT BEING UNETHICAL AND DISLOYAL TO YOUR FOLLOWERS - WHICH BTW, YOU WERE!

WELL GUESS WHAT? I STEPPED UP FOR YOU AND YOU BETTER STEP UP TO THE FUCKING PLATE FOR THE REST OF US. WHEN DID YOU TURN INTO A GREY SHEEP? WAKE THE FUCK UP AND GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER.

GET YOUR SHIT AND MY SHIT OUT OF THIS MESS BEFORE WE ALL GO DOWN WITH THIS SINKING SHIP.

I HAVE PAID DEARLY FOR BEING SO OUTSPOKEN AND DEDICATED IN MY SEARCH TO FIND A PLACE WHERE WE CAN CELEBRATE INDIVIDUAL FREEDOMS FREE FROM REPRESSIVE GOVERNMENT AND TOXIC PEOPLE.

I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE A FUCKING ANSWER AS TO WHY WE ALLOW THIS KIND OF BULLSHIT TO CONTINUE? DON'T YOU GET IT... DIVIDE AND CONQUER.  [REF: COINTELPRO]

DIVIDED WE FAIL. 

FACE IT WE ARE NOT ON ANIMAL FARM-- WE ARE ON PLANET FUCKING PLUTO WHERE WE ARE TOO BUSY WATCHING THE MICKEY MOUSE CLUB INSTEAD OF OUR CHILDREN. [REF: THE CORPORATION]

WE ARE NOT ALL CREATED EQUAL. SOME ARE MORE EQUAL THAN OTHERS.  [REF: ORWELL, ANIMAL FARM]

SO WHEN I AM SENDING AN SOS FROM WHATEVER PLATFORM... THAN I DESERVE THE COURTESY OF SOMEONE TRYING TO DELIVER THE MESSAGE IN A LANGUAGE OR FORMAT THEY CAN UNDERSTAND. AND, TRYING TO SHOW SOME SUPPORT IN A LANGUAGE OR FORMAT THAT I CAN UNDERSTAND. [REF: #ONE]

#911 IS THE SAME IN EVERY LANGUAGE. #thatisall

cyberbusted

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NOTICE THIS IS YOUR ACCOUNT THAT WAS HACKED ALONG WITH MINE. SO, WHEN I AM BEING ACCUSED OF SOMETHING UNETHICAL AND ILLEGAL AND YOU HAVE THE ABILITY TO BOTH CLEAR MY NAME AND PUT AN END TO THE SITUATION I EXPECT YOU DO IT AND QUICKLY REMOVE ANYONE WHO THE MEMBERS OF THIS FORUM.

WHO IS GUARDING YOUR HOUSE TONIGHT? PUT AN END TO DISINFO AGENTS AND PROVOCATEURS.

IF YOU WON'T DO IT FOR ME, DO IT FOR YOURSELF. IF NOT FOR YOURSELF THEN DO IT FOR THE WORLD. [REF: STEVIE NICKS TIMESPACE]

#911 IS THE SAME IN EVERY LANGUAGE. #thatisall

see for yourself!

Why Wait For Christmas?

My life was brilliant, my life was pure...

#DMCA TAKE DOWN - The CONTELPRO Legacy: His story (and hers)

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StaTus: Halted in progress (yay me @ElyssaD)

I don't if know if you received this email. My netbook crashed as I as sending and it froze for 26 hours.

But I did the information for SafeLink program which is wonderful because my extremely "bazaar" and changes the cell service every few days without informing me. Tmobile will not provide information at all so I can't access email because they reset the password. Ironically, the ONE legal snafu with that little welfare phone...  the bitch fucked me there too... by claiming me AGAIN as a dependent in New York State.

As you know she claimed as a dependent on her tax returns without my consent or knowledge.

The IRS informed me of this breach since every time I went to file my taxed they were rejected by the IRS because it showed up a duplicate Tax (Social Security ID)

She claims that her accountant did and she knew nothing about it (if you could only picture my face and feel the sarcasm in voice as I am forced to repeat this information time and time again to any and all "agencies" who make inquired) she however does see this as a problem and refuses to file an amended return (cost $70.00) so once again I am rendered incapable of establishing independent (in every sense of the

word)

In addition, my father, well... Here we go...

My father as you know agreed to be my representative payee for Social Security disability. Obviously that was a big mistake on my part and has yet to be resolved. Congressman Cooper's office totally dropped the ball and said there is nothing they can do. I requested that reopen the investigation, and despite my persistent nice (which is both annoying and immense) they simply do pretend that I don't exist. Governor Bredesen sent an email telling me to call the President.

Seriously, are you kidding me?

So this is where we stand: no Social Security never received the money that received in ITOLA account during the months I spent sleeping in my car or at the lake last summer.

And yes. I did spend a week or so at "The Mission" when I ran out of gas, energy, and hope last August. My father still was receiving the money, but did not pay bills, or release to me in time to prevent the inevitable total disconnection of any and all services (utilities) making it near impossible to re-establish service. They required excessive fees for deposits and past due balances.

http://youtu.be/UkVtucGFaqc

HACKTIVISM 101

As per federal law, my father, Marc Durant is responsible for paying those fees as they were a direct result of his failure to act in my best interest but also a breach of fiduciary duty.

Now, to make matters worse, every time they seem to locate the paperwork it gets redirected to the Philadelphia field office. So The US Dept of Treasury located the funds that were never sent "in error" some bank account (probably in the Cayman's or wherever rich people go to hide there money ~ note both the sarcasm and the simple fact that this is most likely true. It is sad that even to put in these little side notes to even use the one things that through this mess...

Dark sarcasm and a little bit of humor. I'm sick of making excuses for these people (mother: Karen, and father: Leslie Marc Durant) so I am laying it down on the table for whomever it cares to question and blame me for this "unfortunate" situation..

These are the facts. And I need to take a break because my fingers are getting cramps and my back is in spasm.

But I will continue to "the facts" out as long so that I can be free of the constant struggle to be independent, self-sufficient and EMPLOYED! This is absurdity and I realize I have people who do see the obvious truth here. Yet in the real world and the everyday struggle to be "human" continues.

My mother will always be #batshitcrazy

My father will always be #abovethelaw

But I will not always have the strength or the ability to communicate effectively given my financial, physical and emotional reality.

I am aware. I am aware that this is too much for one person to handle and I don't blame those walk away in disgust and frustration because they don't understand the intricate details of the law or the immense emotional drama AND trauma that I face each day without resolution.

I understand that people need to believe that these are the ramblings of a mad woman. If that were true I would say by all means, give me the strongest does of anti psychotics asap. As I think most people are

starting to realize, unfortunately, these facts check out.

There is no treatment for the habitual and continued ignorance of the public at large.

It is not my job soothe them or educate them as in law, sociology, and "the world according to me @ElyssaD"

I do the best I can because I know how serious and pervasive certain components of my story ring true for a number of people.

I will do the best I can to fight that stigma and the emotional torture I live with every single say.

Godammit, I hope this thing sends. It is bad enough that I am typing all this shit on cell phone because AT&T wants a $450 non refundable fee plus $150 deposit, plus $49 for installation for internet.

So in the spirit of which it was intended:

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Wishing myself luck. I know these words are dangerous to some, especially in light of the guy who got arrested for sending out a threatening tweet. Yeah, ~ insert sarcasm about here ~ if you think my words are "dangerous" than you need you deserve to be scared!

(Laughs to oneself as I know I am not a physical threat to anyone but let's face it, if you don't get it you never will. And if this is a lesson is Social Darwinism, let the dumb ones live in fear! And to quote (without permission or proper citation to be added!) But "If this tweet offends you, probably deserve it!"

 @icpchad Yes. I am aware. Now format this bitch and enter it into your contest. I deserve win something... Maybe an iTHINGY or iNTERNET. Not just iWANT that is a legitimate iNEED in the world I live in.

This is me, just me

@ElyssaD

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---------- Forwarded message ----------

From: Elyssa Durant

Date: Tue, 11 May 2010 19:32:58 -0500

Subject: New Microsoft Office Word Document

To: elyssa.durant@yahoo.com, ELYSSA DURANT

Thanks Stacy... I had a hearing at Social Security about two weeks ago.

Very depressing. It cost $44 to or transportation, and they already reversed the decision now I have to go back again and file the same paperwork.

I have not received anything from Section 8 which has me concerned, and my I am a really difficult time with without internet, TV, transportation.... or even a library w/in walking distance.

Especially with the weather this weekend... I had no idea until I heard the sirens. and then of everything was closed... and in 'the hood" it is cash culture, so of course ppl became very aggressive [aka mean] fighting over bottle of water and at the gas station when they reopened.

my mother cancelled changed the password on the "family plan" after we had "words" regarding well... really nothing... but today has just been especially difficult since I don't have reliable phone service... which of course is both a security and comfort issue for someone who writes as a form of therapy..

I just received this alert on my computer email... I don't even know where to start...

I received the invitation to the info session on WIPA that you guys did...unfortunately transportation is problematic.

I have been receiving a lot of from people online... as silly as it sounds there are so many ppl isolated and lonely. So I found they have forums for ppl with PTSD and it has been very helpful to have eed back that I am not the only one feeling left behind in the disability movement.

Apparently I managed to reach a few ppl locally who call [my number is public] to ask if I had any success with the housing and re-employment programs. it makes me feel like I can be of some service to the community... social services just got hear so I need to sign off but I have received so many fraud alert that other people e.g., EFF and other human right agencies have started to ask about my story.

All I can say is that I did write a review online for the Center for Independent Living at disabilty.gov website when they were looking to for feedback on reemployment programs... I also had an article in USA Today and the Hufffington Post that made me hopeful and regret at the same time... this is a recent post i got tons of feed back on... it is long, but ppl really seem to relate...

Daily dose of TMI: May 13, 3010

Staus: Halted in progress

I don't if know if you received this email. My netbook crashed as I as sending and it froze for 26 hours.

But I did the information for SafeLink program which is wonderful because my extremely "bazaar" and changes the cell service every few days without informing me. Tmobile will not provide information at all so I can't access email because they reset the password. Itonically, the ONE legal snafu with that lttle welfare phone...  the bitch fucked me there too... by claiming me AGAIN as a dependent in New York State.

As you know she claimed as a dependent on her tax returns without my consent or knowledge. The IRS informed me of this breach since every time I went to file my taxed they were rejected by the IRS because it showed up a duplicate Tax (Social Security ID)

She claims that her accountant did and she knew nothing about it (if you could only picture my face and feel the sarcasm in voice as I am forced to repeat this information time and time again to any and all "agencies" who make inquired) she however does see this as a problem and refuses to file an amended return (cost $70.00) so once again I am rendered incapable of establishing independent (in every sense of the

word)

In addition, my father,

My father as you know agreed to be my representative payee for Social Security disability. Obviously that was a big mistake on my part and has yet to be resolved. Congressman Cooper's office totally dropped

the ball and said there is nothing they can do. I requested that reopen the investigation, and despite my persistent nice (which is both annoying and immense) they simply do pretend that I don't exist. Governor Bredesen sent an email telling me to call the President.

Seriously, are you kidding me?

So this is where we stand: no Social Security never received the money that received in IOTLA account during the months I spent sleeping in my car or at the lake last summer.

And yes. I did spend a week or so at "The Mission" when I ran out of gas, energy, and hope last August. My father still was receiving the money, but did not pay bills, or release to me in time to prevent the inevitable total disconnection of any and all services (utilities) making it near impossible to re-establish service. They required excessive fees for deposits and past due balances.

As per federal law, my father, Marc Durant is responsible for paying those fees as they were a direct result of his failure to act in my best interest but also a breach of fiduciary duty.

Now, to make matters worse, every time they seem to locate the paperwork it gets redirected to the Philadelphia field office. So The US Dept of Treasury located the funds that were never sent "in error" some bank account (probably in the Cayman's or wherever rich people go to hide there money ~ note both the sarcasm and the simple fact that this is most likely true. It is sad that even to put in these little side notes to even use the one things that through this mess...

Dark sarcasm and a little bit of humor. I'm sick of making excuses for these people (mother: Karen, and father: Leslie Marc Durant) so I am laying it down on the table for whomever it cares to question and blame me for this "unfortunate" situation..

These are the facts. And I need to take a break because my fingers are getting cramps and my back is in spasm.

But I will continue to "the facts" out as long so that I can be free of the constant struggle to be independent, self-sufficient and EMPLOYED! This is absurdity and I realize I have people who do see the obvious truth here. Yet in the real world and the everyday struggle to be "human" continues.

My mother will always be #batshitcrazy.

My father will always be #abovethelaw.

But I will not always have the strength or the ability to communicate effectively given my financial, physical and emotional reality.

I am aware. I am aware that this is too much for one person to handle and I don't blame those walk away in disgust and frustration because they don't understand the intricate details of the law or the immense emotional drama AND trauma that I face each day without resolution.

I understand that people need to believe that these are the ramblings of a mad woman. If that were true I would say by all means, give me the strongest does of anti psychotics asap. As I think most people are starting to realize, unfortunately, these facts check out.

There is no treatment for the habitual and continued ignorance of the public at large.

It is not my job soothe them or educate them as in law, sociology, and "the world according to me @ElyssaD"

I do the best I can because I know how serious and pervasive certain components of my story ring true for a number of people.

I will do the best I can to fight that stigma and the emotional torture I live with every single say.

Godammit, I hope this thing sends. It is bad enough that I am typing all this shit on cell phone because AT&T wants a $450 non refundable fee plus $150 deposit, plus $49 for installation for internet

So in the spirit of which it was intended:

Wishing myself luck. I know these words are dangerous to some, especially in light of the guy who got arrested for sending out a threatening tweet. Yeah, ~ insert sarcasm about here ~ if you think my words are "dangerous" than you need you deserve to be scared!

(Laughs to oneself as I know I am not a physical threat to anyone but let's face it, if you don't get it you never will. And if this is a lesson is Social Darwinism, let the dumb ones live in fear! And to quote (without permission or proper citation to be added!) But "If this tweet offends you, probably deserve it!"

 @icpchad Yes. I am aware. Now format this bitch and enter it into your contest. I deserve win something... Maybe an iTHINGY or iNTERNET. Not just iWANT that is a legitimate iNEED in the world I live in.

This is me, just me

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@ElyssaD

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Elyssa Durant, Ed.M.

Nashville, Tennessee

(615) 424-8810

"You may not care how much I know, but you don't know how much I care."

_________________________________________________________________

Posted via email from ElyssaD's Posterous

File under: Disambiguation, Crime, Social Justice / Human Rights; Crime, Crisis, Digital Divide, Cognitive Dissonance, Conspiracy

Obstruction of Justice: Destruction of Character by Elyssa Durant, Ed.M.

Please note that I am copying a third party with this e-mail.

1. Social Security must be advised immediately that they have

(a) The amount on the check is significantly less than the amount stated in the letter I received less than one month ago

(b) My former representative payee misreported my income on his last statement

(c) In addition to misreporting my income, he checked the wrong box so he never told them that I am longer working and do not receive any either income

This is important for several reasons because my re-certification for food stamps and TennCare (Medicaid) is tomorrow and DHS uses the income reported to Social Security to determine my eligibility status. There is somewhat of d domino effect since my Section 8 payment was also changed effective 8/1/2008 based on this information, and as you are aware, my former case manager never mailed in any of the documents requested last March.

I have taken care of the subrogation claim, however, that does not minimize my level of frustration because I am DROWNING in paperwork. I have contacted several agencies to provide assistance, however I do not have the resources necessary to provide them with timely response. There is a very limited time allowed to request reconsideration or file an appeal.

I have done everything humanly possible to clean up the slack, however ant this point, I feel I have no other choice than to file a formal complaint so that my entire case is reviewed. The number of mistakes is so overwhelming that I simply do not have enough time to documents each and every one with the respective agency.

I also want to be clear that every time I have to call Social Security or DHS, it only compounds my cost of living expenses (40 cents per minute on the telephone -- a bill which is not even considered to be a justifiable expense) Most agencies do not include self-addressed stamped envelopes, and I can not afford the postage required to mail out all of the requested documentation (e.g., utility bills, medical bills, pay stubs, etc.)

Fortunately, a number of agencies will take online complaints. Unfortunately, my internet was interrupted for non-payment for several weeks and there is no funding resource or community agency that provides subsidized Internet access or free printer ink.

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Transportation costs are ridiculous so going to the library is not an option. Neither is returning to work right now, since it would cost too much to get to the interview or provide official (expensive) copies of my graduate school transcripts that were oh, such a good investment!

That aside, I am not the most user friendly person right about now, so I have found it difficult to put on a happy face so I can work at McDonald's which pays more than Metro anyway.

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The subrogation claim has been resolved but I just learned that my breast biopsy was not [pre-authorized and I was told by my INSURANCE CSR (the person who answers the phone) that I should not have the surgery that has already been scheduled at the Women's hospital for 8/21/2008 since they did not authorize the biopsy last month, and have not received a request prior authorization for the surgery that has already been scheduled for next week...

This was a lovely 54 minute conversation because he would not mail me copies of my EOBs or confirm that what, if any, requests have been submitted for payment since my last inquiry and change of address. He finally told me that to call the state (Tennessee) which I have already done several times, and they told me to call Social Security but it was already past business hours and I am not authorized to make changes to my file anyway.

I will try to be more specific later without going into too much detail, but unfortunately, that level of detail is required to file the necessary appeals. Ironic, huh? This apartment is like my own little cage, and I am just pathetic enough to run around in circles, hoping to find the much like a hamster wheel, rodent chasing in circles hoping to found my way out my way out before I run out air. If only I had finished my damn PhD, I would do my own case study or reality show on how far we will go to have nothing at all...

And even though my life is a living hell, I have almost learned how to enjoy the sheer irony of it all... for someone with OCD and post-traumatic stress, this is truly a ridiculous little experiment.

I will be in touch when I can. Unfortunately, each agency has different deadlines, and it takes a lot of energy and time to scan in, copy, or respond to each inquiry in writing, so I find myself running out of time since I cannot seem to get anything done unless I just do nothing at all.

I am becoming increasingly inspired to just burn every last document I own, throw away my keys and my cell phone and take Spotty some place where we can live off the land and ignore the fact that society has me chained to a computer screen that screen that does provide the basic necessities I need to live.

I have come this far, and I am becoming rather skilled and at expressing myself without needing an audience or the obsessive need to check every fact, throw, and typo for capitalization and perfection.

So for now I write. Maybe later, I will read, but if there is any justice left in this world, someday, I might actually live.

Good-bye for now. I need a break.

With love,

Your little sis.

Elyssa Durant, Ed.M.
Nashville, Tennessee
Reply to: elyssa.durant@columbia.edu

"You may not care how much I know, but you don't know how much I care."


--- On Mon, 8/11/08, Lauren Durant laurendurant@durantlaw.com wrote:

From: Lauren Durant laurendurant@durantlaw.com

Subject: s.s. check - attached

To: ed70@columbia.edu

Date: Monday, August 11, 2008, 5:05 PM

$515.50

COINTELPRO: DESTRUCTION OF EVIDENCE

Social Security Fraud: Abuse of Process or Abuse of Power? by Elyssa Durant, Ed.M.

Offering the American people and populations at risk a false sense of security is unfair and unjust. I would rather have nothing at all than false expectations and disappointment in a social "security" system that has repeatedly failed society's most vulnerable populations.

The bottom line is this, we can pass laws, we can file injunctive orders of relief, waivers for this and for that or pass symbolic legislation to spew a false sense of hope... but if the pattern of "reform" mimics that of recent state efforts, the implementation of the new healthcare program is going to be a freaking disaster!

Public programs that fall short if their promise to assist those in crisis. Unless we demand accountability from state and federal agencies (1) demanding a timely response; (2) create and external entity to do an independent audit to ensure compliance, (3) enforce those laws through whatever means necessary; we have no recourse. Welcome to my world...

muzak

Playing With Fire: COINTELPRO

MOVE Philadelphia's burning, who's to blame?" "When you hear the song, the whole story is there," Sigler said. "People might get mad at me but I'm going to tell the story." http://post.ly/gv0Q & http://post.ly/fqpz & http://post.ly/sBHL [and then some]

Drowning in Apathy

speechless.  it is difficult to even formulate a complete sentence. 

this is not new.  the violence the corruption, "the terror of knowing what this world is about..."

yet we fail to act. as a society we look away or we blame the victim because it easier than taking action and demanding reform and accountability.

enough is enough.

am i only person who is outraged? 

disgusted and resigned.

 

despite overwhelming evidence of corruption and excessive use of force, violence and terror against the people of this country,  we allow it to continue.

i will never feel safe in this country. i will never feel safe in this community. this little town.

i have no where to run to. no place to go should i need to escape the deadly violence that i know a times can be all too real.

i can not think of a single place anywhere that i might have access to. or even find transportation or an an evacuation if ever ordered to evacuate or should i feel the desire or need to leave all by myself.

wow.

 

i have no rights. i have no community. i have no reasonable expectation for anything to change today, tomorrow, next week or next year. i am trapped.

i also do not believe there is anything i might do today that will make things a little bit better for someone else tomorrow. 

i will never feel safe. not here, not  anywhere. 

i can not say for sure that i would call the police next time i was either a victim or a witness to a crime in my own backyard.

not because i am afraid to get involved or fear gangs or thugs~ because i trust my instincts, and know when something is wrong. 

something is wrong.

something has been wrong for a very long time.

remember this, in the words of

speechless.  it is difficult to even formulate a complete sentence.

this is not new.  the violence the corruption, "the terror of knowing what this world is about..."

 

yet we fail to act. as a society we look away or we blame the victim because it easier than taking action and demanding reform and accountability.

enough is enough.

am i only person who is outraged? 

disgusted and resigned.

despite overwhelming evidence of corruption and excessive use of force, violence and terror against the people of this country,  we allow it to continue.

i will never feel safe in this country. i will never feel safe in this community. this little town.

i have no where to run to. no place to go should i need to escape the deadly violence that i know a times can be all too real.

i can not think of a single place anywhere that i might have access to. or even find transportation or an an evacuation if ever ordered to evacuate or should i feel the desire or need to leave all by myself.

wow.

i have no country. i have no rights. i have no reasonable expectation for anything to change today, tomorrow, next week or net year. i am trapped.

i also do not believe thee is anything i might do today that will make things a little bit better for someone else tomorrow. 

i will never feel safe. not here, not  anywhere. 

i can not say for sure that i would call the police next time i was either a victim or a witness to a crime in my own backyard.

not because i am afraid to get involved or fear gangs or thugs~ because i trust my instincts, and know when something is wrong. 

something is wrong.

something has been wrong for a very long time.

25 years ago this week, a coordinated effort between the united states government, the Philadelphia police department and counterintelligence [interesting concept] conspired to carry out what could become one of the greatest massacre in us history.

the crime that won't go down.

west Philadelphia. osage avenue. 11 people. 5 children. one survivor.

people can not understand my deep connection to the people who died that day or the families that stayed behind hoping that the people if this nation would rebuild their homes after using extraordinary to means to silence the vice of a man who believed in the right to be free.

Vincent Leaphart was a voice to be reckoned with.

A voice that sounded just a little like my own. a little bit radical and a whole lot misunderstood.  He was a voice that needed to be heard because he was ordered to be silenced. 

The Powers That Beat.

When the United States failed to convict him in 1978, "the people" did not rest their case. 

they just changed the rules of the game, and i know them all too well.

i was 12 years old at the time. 

something was brewing.

i was living in an upper middle class suburban neighborhood outside of Philadelphia.  bucks county, pa.

my father, a well spoken, well educated, and well respected member of the community took me into the the closet to show me where to get the guns.  extra bullets, of course were in a bucket in the basement. under the stairs in where there was limited light and space to move about freely. 

he stood behind me with his arms on tops of my own and held my hands together. the whole time correcting my posture and my stance using the force of his arms and his grip around my arms and my body as i held the gun with both hands. 

it was probably one of the few times i remember him being so close to me physically. his rested on top of mine adding additional pressure demanding a calm, steady and calculated response.

i was trained. to stay calm, and stay in control as the helicopters began to take position over the city of brotherly love. 

i learned how to stay calm in and around a fucking god damned massacre. 

he had his arms around me to exert his position and to steady the gun should i falter, should i flinch. 

marksman first class.

you don't just aim, fire, and hope for the best. you shoot to kill. 

watch so he could stand behind me and watch me take aim. suburban and i already knew how to shoot a gun, 

how many twelve year olds can say that?

so next time, boys, i won't be calling you. besides, from what i can tell you keep pretty close under the radar. 

so when see the car parked outside my window for four hours at a time, yeah, i may stutter and i may fall, but i like father like daughter, i will come around.

and you can be sure that if i managed to stay alive  after what happened last summer, you be sure of one thing... this is far from over.

no. i do not trust the boys in blue. i do not trust the my neighbors or community to do the right thing in the midst of a crisis. i barely have it in me to give a crap what happens to people in "my" community.  those who turned away made jokes, or came up with their own version of actually went down that day, and in the months that followed.

it really is too late for apologies. i know you heard me. i also have the phone records and every letter and email that was sent through the "proper channels"

it won't save me. but if I'm lucky, i just might get a ticket out of here so i can actually breathe freely and walk out beneath the shadows, the shadows of death.

i simply can not watch this video without wondering how we allow this behavior to continue despite the overwhelming evidence that we are all at risk of being victimized by those we trust will be there to protect us. 

remember this... you have no rights!