ELyssa Durant, Ed.M. © 2009-2013
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
The Last Goodbye
I can no longer protect the one who hurt me the most, and I officially declare myself as independent and free.
Goodbye for now to The Powers That Beat, I am growing so tired ofthat nightmare where I cannot move my feet.
I am one today, but I am not alone; my DNA and birthright does not make me a clone.
Any genetic disorders, whatever they may be; will never again stand in the way for my fight to be free.
My bloodline alone comes right back to you, and your ridiculous denials are nothing new.
I must protect myself from your twisted mind, never forget, late last night, you left me behind.
You may think I have forgotten all your hysterical pleas, but I am legally required to remind you of these.
I hope you are ready for what lies ahead, because I do not think anyone else will agree this was all in my head.
You may dispose of my photos, writings, and more, I am sorry you do not realize you have officially now escalated funny money into a full-fledged war.
You declared this yourself, on March the Fourteenth, and I will expect it in writing before the next April 15th.
You no longer manipulate my ID or actions and blame; for I am not the one who falsely claims to be poor.
You may find it a little bit harder to blame it on crazy and point the finger at me; I am posting it here for the whole to see.
Do not blame my siblings or my father's new wife; material wealth should mean more value than your own child's life.
I got excluded from the human genome, stop feeding me crazy, just bring it back home.
The suicide note I once left in your possession, should no longer be guarded as your greatest protection.
I defy the heritage that left me broken inside; any tears I have shed will finally subside; I no longer will allow myself to be tried by the ridiculous facade that has given YOU a false sense of pride.
I am now on my own, as was always the case; it is so very sad you thought of this as a race.
I will honor your request to sever all ties; it is long overdue that I be free from your lies.
I never signed on to your game of deception, there was much more at stake than a strangers' perception.
So just as you once photographed my tattoo, sadly but surely, this one joke is on you.
I doubt you heard my very last words, but they were words of sincerity I hope that you'll review because my concern was genuine; just too familiar, we discussed nothing new.
I defy my heritage and reject your faith; I think I am worth more than an aborted mistake.
I declare my freedom and reject your "good faith" I am sorry you believe I was your biggest mistake.
You are so transparent it is easy to see, I hope you leave this behind the same way you left me.
My bloodline runs deeper than your maternal pride; I pray for your sake psychosis is real, for I see no other way your pain will ever be healed.
I am over and done with this stupid game, I gave you more than one warning to amend your tax claim.
So as I fight for my freedom, my health and my name, I hope your psychosis protects you from shame.
I must no longer allow trauma to guide me through life; I cannot worry about details as you become a new wife, you are correct in your assessment that you have earned all the "things" you cling to for dear life.
If there ever was a time to say, "This too shall pass...," then please go ahead and kiss my tattooed fat ass!
ELyssa Durant, Ed.M. © 2009-2013